A voicehearer’s path ~

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Anger, there is help . . .

Dealing with my own anger issues has been one of the toughest problems, but one of the most important to accomplish. When I am incredibly angry, the “low” voices are at their strongest, and I can hear them most clearly. Their presence is uncomfortable in and of itself, and reason enough to find ways to deal with this very normal emotion.

For me, and apparently for all humans, intense anger blocks the flow of love. Now, that’s only logical, but, when you think about, and indeed consciously contemplate it, that would explain quite clearly why some one like me is particularly bothered by the angry blockage of that flow.

At the risk of sounding terribly esoteric, I will try to explain this as I understand it. Apparently, there is some sort of tear or opening in the “fabric” that protects the human entity from hearing the sounds, and seeing the events, that happen on subtler, less visible or audible layers of the universe. I wish I could put this in more scientific terms, but I am under the understanding that it has something to do with the bands of light and sound that are normally perceptible to the human eye and ear.

Now, I am not insisting that what I hear is the result of some sane and sober process, because it often feels just the opposite, and I am quick to discourage those who would willingly subject themselves to any “New Age” process that might open one to this sort of thing. Don’t do it, it’s not fun. Learning to live with it has been a harrowing process and I have made many, some disastrous, mistakes in the learning process!

Now, put that insight into practice in that this “window” or tear leaves me open to hearing “low” angry, nasty destructive voices. When I open myself, however, to love and release my own anger, the flow of the loving energy “blocks”, if you will, the sound of the “low” voices. This was one of the most important steps in my development, and happened under the minstering of “Charismatics”, which is why I will not label that way of life as evil. They did me much good. It is simply that, like all human perspectives, they are not perfect. Oooops, neither am I.

The next step in my learning, however, came from a Buddhist teacher who showed me the benefits of “letting go”, completely, of all attachment to outcomes. I will not say that I have been a resounding success at this, but most of the time I am able, sometimes with much prayer and meditation, to let go of my “right” to expect the results I want from what I do, or even from what others do. It is extremely helpful in that I get angry less often when I succeed at this, and am able to relax and let the flow of love keep the disturbing voices at bay.

It is here that the mantra, “Grant me the serenity, courage and wisdom . . .” has been of great service in my life. I am most grateful to AA for making their teachings public, and most grateful to Dr. Neibuhr for development of that prayer.

EDIT ~

12.3.2008, looking back to see what I had said, I find that I did not give the name of the Buddhist teacher whose worked helped me so much. Since his teaching is quite available to the public, that is unfair. Thich Nhat Hanh is his name, the book is Anger, Wisdom for Cooling the Flames. Excellent learning resource, and comes in CD as well.

Pantheism/Monotheism an old debate ~

God is Everywhere, Everywhere is God! Which is it, really? This is the age old argument between Pantheism and Monotheism. But, truly, how much difference is there between the perspectives? In one you see the world as inhabited by Spirit, in the other you see the world inhabited by spirits. Yet, in monotheism, there is room for angels and demons and all sorts of “in betweens”, so a minor “garden god” in pantheism becomes an angel of the garden in monotheism.

The difference between the two perspectives is the idea that you can see one intelligence as being “in charge” of the whole. I believe there is, but even that “in charge” being is not as we presume. We think being in charge means that everything that happens on your shift is your responsibility. In which case, everything from the greatest good to the darkest evil can be “pinned” onto God’s robes and we can get all sorts of “mad” at God for allowing bad things to happen.

Perhaps. But what about the idea that God may “create” simply because that is the nature of God’s “being”, and then, when it is created, God releases it into the universe having already endowed it with the ability to make choices on it’s own, and hopes for the best. With the ability to make choices comes an insidious little thing creeping into the works called an ego. This ego then, has the choice to “obey” the “Prime Directive” to Love, or to go it’s own way, wanting what it wants and not giving a d*mn about any other entity’s rights or feelings.

Since that latter seems, indeed, to be the way things are, in backtracking the clues, it would seem to me that this GOD is inclined to create and release. But, why? Well, this theory has been around for a long while, as have most of the things I have put together on this blog, but, perhaps the Creator desires to be loved freely, not by command. In that case, the Creator would have to give the created the choice to love or not to love.

Now, lets go back to the question of pantheism v. monotheism. If we understand that there is but one actual God, then we begin to at least look for the primary reasons for our having been created. If we leave it that the spirits are as we are, and unguided, or perhaps guided by one as faulty as Zeus, each a being unto himself, then there really is no reason to look for motive beyond the existence of life itself. That’s almost good enough, after all, there is simply a sacredness about life that is so profound that Moshe wrote into the laws the idea that if a man wasted his seed he had sinned, (this would, indeed be the idea behind the gay lifestyle being sinful, one was created to procreate, never mind that there are already too many of us on the planet {or that that is the precursor to a proliferation of same gender relations throughout all of nature.})

¿Do you ever wonder if God can change his/her mind? After all, the command to go forth and multiply has been obeyed to the point of overflowing, can God command us to close the tap down to a trickle? And are we so foolish that we need God to even make such a command?

Yet, all over the planet there are indications that compassion is the paradigm toward which we are to grow. Is this built into us? That implication is there, both scientifically and philosophically. Or is it the response of mankind to One who has been guiding us toward compassion? And even here, I have wondered for some time if compassion is so profound a need (I’d agree) that it matters not whether the students follow monotheism or pantheism?

Witness Taoism and Judaism; the teachings are similar, the core almost identical, yet the approach is mirrored, and so (almost) justifies wars. Just remember, war in any disguise makes compassion more difficult! *The painting is by Dina Dargo, and links to where it may be purchased, but so beautifully makes the point of the dichotomy which I am addressing! The vine in Buddhism seems to signify living in the moment looking neither to past nor future, and for me it signifies Spirit as the vine taking me from gentle human form into something greater, (oops, maybe they are the same perspective?)

I have seen in dreams Hashem as a many faceted jewel, when we look in any one of the faces, things look right and complete from that point of view, yet, a complete understanding of Hashem can only be had when all the faces are put together and one can see the complete and glowing gem.

So, forgive and forget, eh?

Just like that, no matter the crime? Well, maybe not “just like that, with a snap of the fingers”, but we do need to forgive. Now, we humans are apt to hold onto small snippets of injury that could be released with little effort if we really thought about it. But, unfortunately, sometimes we get into a rut and just decide to martyr ourselves over small slights. Even here, there is such a sadness at the fact that, “letting go” would improve the health and well-being of the organism. In fact, one of the things that saddens me the most is the misconception that forgiving someone automatically absolves them of the crime, as though it were never committed.

That can happen, as I understand it, but not by your word or action, it happens at a much higher level than most humans can even hope to attain in a particular lifetime. You may learn compassion, and you may learn utter forgiveness, and it releases you from the blockages that such anger causes in the flow of energy. Only as the “other”, i.e. the one you have forgiven learns to forgive are their shortcomings forgiven them. Each of us must learn forgiveness for our shortcomings to be absolved. You do not absolve another’s crimes by forgiving them, you only release the life-force to flow freely within you again.

C Forgive me, at the risk of belaboring a point too far, I am going to use a little analogy. Imagine that you are pointing to the one who wronged you in an accusatory manner. There in the fingers folded back on your palm held tightly is a list of the wrongs committed. You must release that list, open your palm and relax, letting go of the hurt and pain that was caused by the wrong in order for the healing balm of the Holy Spirit to begin to enter you and heal you. This is the forgiveness you are being asked to give, indeed, commanded if you want the healing for yourself. This process actually does not affect the other person at all. It is for you alone to receive the gift offered.

This same process must happen in the person who wronged you for their wrongs to be righted, and for them to receive any healing from the Holy Spirit. Now, the truth of it all is that, if you are no longer holding onto the hurt and pain, as you have every right to do, but it will continue to harm you if you do, the other person, sensing that what they did no longer has the power to hurt you, may actually begin to look at the events and begin to release their own “angst”. There is no guarantee of this, and it should not be looked for, but it has been known to happen, as when the Holy Spirit is in a project, miracles most certainly can happen!

Relaxing the fist is not easy. Sometimes you have to take your other hand and pry open your own fist, i.e. a lot of prayer, but if you can get there, the rewards for you are immense. C

So, what this means, ultimately, is that, yes, you must forgive, but, should you hope that the other’s sins will be ultimately forgiven you must pray that they learn to forgive also. The grandest part of this little piece of knowledge is that once you realize that this is how the flow works, you know that the one who committed the crime against you, in order to be forgiven, must repent and forgive also. You know that the forgiven individual is not going to commit the crimes of the past, because they have turned their life around and now serve the Holy One and the “energy” can flow for all.

Do you see, my friends, that this is why it is so important for you to mind your own path, and not your neighbor’s, not even your “enemy’s? Each of us will go before the ‘Holy Counsel’ and answer for our own crimes. This is where they are absolved and it is and will always be individual by individual, not a group process. If, when you come before the Counsel you have forgiven, i.e. released all injuries done to you, and are at peace, your shortcomings can also be forgiven, for the healing energy can flow through you.

Following this line of thought further, it will come to pass that the more folk who learn proper forgiveness, the stronger the energy will flow for all mankind, and the stronger the energy flows, the sooner will all receive the healing needed to grow strong and healthy minds and spirits. Whoa, now that would be glorious in the extreme, yes? Yes!

But . . . . .we must remember that the changes that occur in the heart in order for forgiveness to happen are seldom instantaneous. Many times, when a crime has been committed, there is a loss that must be grieved before true healing can even begin. Like the stages of the butterfly, changes happen over time, but they are worth waiting for, for the human that learns to forgive does, eventually, become a fully winged and free butterfly!

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