A voicehearer’s path ~

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Contemplating the Presence ~

large_web One of my favorite meditations is contemplating the Presence and how it has affected my life. I say “it” rather loosely there, as, to me, Hashem is above masculine and feminine, hearkening to the beginning before duality, yet, Hashem is very definitely a sentient being, full of life and love. Such contemplation helps me reach up when I am “down”, helps me return to gratitude when I forget that I am very blessed, and in general balances out my life. I am very much a monotheist, believing that there is one unifying force behind all life in this and other Universes.

I buy the idea that Y’shua taught that there was but one commandment from Hashem, that is to love. The reason I buy that that is not a tampered with teaching is that it goes so contrary to the practice of the modern church as a whole. This does not mean that there are not denominations that try for the most part to practice such, it is simply a statement of observation of a judgmental system by which those who “believe” take license to feel they are bodie_7_bg_090604better than those who do not. I most heartily disagree with that position.

I have said before that I have observed much in other religious systems that would indicate that the Holy Spirit has been in communication with all peoples all over the world, and that that same presence cares without exception about the well-being of all the little sparks of life on this planet, because that spark in each of us is part of Hashem: part of the whole. Saying that Hashem only cares about Christians, or Jews, or Islamic, or Jain, or Buddhist, or Taoist believers is bunk! If your big toe declared itself an atheist, would you cease to care about your big toe? And, in order to walk in balance you need that toe. Don’t be foolish, Hashem does not care your race, color, creed or age! Hashem cares whether you live in compassionate fellowship with your fellow beings.

I personally believe that those at1_robeheists who live compassionately, will find themselves quite surprised at their fate once they are bodiless. And these are the people with whom I have the least connection. Where a person believes in Pantheism, or Paganism, there is often a sense of civility and caring missing in many who claim to know Rabbi Y’shua on a personal basis. (That’s not possible, BTW. He said you would know his people by the way they loved others, I believe him, not the modern pundits.) I have long since learned to look beyond a person’s outward declarations to their core behaviors. If they know how to care, really care about others, they have been touched by Spirit somewhere along the line. If there is no caring, well, read it for yourself, I John 4:7&8.

One thing more, I do believe in the God that watches us, but it is more watching over us, but even that does not go far enough. Hashem is not just a loving G-d, Hashem breathes with us, is here, between the cells, there, between the in and out breath, and everywhere, even Paul had this right, it is Spirit, through whom we live, and move and have our being. The Holy Spirit is literally the Holy Breath. Selah.

Inner Child ~

“HELP!, my inner child has escaped and refuses to go back inside!”

“Ye must become as a little child in order to enter the Kingdom.” Did you ever wonder what Y’shua meant by that? I have heard many teachers speculate, and I think some have almost hit it, but I suspect we had to begin to explore and face our inner workings with something like psychology in order to discover the depth of the meaning of that one simple teaching.

Once you realize that the child within the adult that you are needs healing and help from childhood traumas, you can begin to see that it is here that Y’shua’s teachings can become real. There are many Inner Child Therapists available to help if you need more than a simple meditation for this healing, and there are several recorded discs by different authors and counselors that will help you relax and have a good experience with a guided meditation.

I would truly recommend that, if you do not have a pleasant and fulfilling time with the meditation, that you take the time and seek a good therapist to help you sort out the trauma that may have interfered with that, as the likelihood that such is the case may be high. Do not attempt to use one of the discs if you know that you have unresolved childhood issues.

So, what is the “Kingdom”? I would love to ask Y’shua that face to face, and intend to when I see him. Many preachers and teachers have addressed that question, but I am not sure any one person actually has the answer. I can tell you what I think it is, but, the likelihood is that your preacher will disagree with me. Nevertheless, I will share what I believe it to be, and you may use to concept or not as you choose.

For me, the “Kingdom” is a mental, emotional and spiritual place within my own self that is “where” I meet with Spirit. This is my meditation space, though to be truthful, it usually feels like a place far away and in another dimension. Sometimes it is a lovely garden where I meet with a gentle healer looking very much like my picture of Y’shua. Sometimes I am simply sitting on a hill surrounded by golden light. It veries vastly from the influence of what my days and weeks have been like.

I have a specific meditation in which I meet my Inner child on a beach in the summer and we play, and swim, and talk. It’s a lovely meditation, and sometimes a gentle woman joins us there, ageless, beautiful and wise. She is of such a skin tone that I cannot tell if she is Native American, middle Eastern or Oriental. It doesn’t matter, she is kind and gentle, always leading me toward loving thought. It is this gentle spirit whose influence has kept me from following darker ways, and, though I have no doubt whatsoever that I would be thought possessed by my Christian bretheren, her teachings have always been filled with compassion and understanding. I guess I will choose to still hear her voice and take my chances on the other side.

Please, if you have not done any inner child work, explore it, it would be quite rewarding.

Anger, there is help . . .

Dealing with my own anger issues has been one of the toughest problems, but one of the most important to accomplish. When I am incredibly angry, the “low” voices are at their strongest, and I can hear them most clearly. Their presence is uncomfortable in and of itself, and reason enough to find ways to deal with this very normal emotion.

For me, and apparently for all humans, intense anger blocks the flow of love. Now, that’s only logical, but, when you think about, and indeed consciously contemplate it, that would explain quite clearly why some one like me is particularly bothered by the angry blockage of that flow.

At the risk of sounding terribly esoteric, I will try to explain this as I understand it. Apparently, there is some sort of tear or opening in the “fabric” that protects the human entity from hearing the sounds, and seeing the events, that happen on subtler, less visible or audible layers of the universe. I wish I could put this in more scientific terms, but I am under the understanding that it has something to do with the bands of light and sound that are normally perceptible to the human eye and ear.

Now, I am not insisting that what I hear is the result of some sane and sober process, because it often feels just the opposite, and I am quick to discourage those who would willingly subject themselves to any “New Age” process that might open one to this sort of thing. Don’t do it, it’s not fun. Learning to live with it has been a harrowing process and I have made many, some disastrous, mistakes in the learning process!

Now, put that insight into practice in that this “window” or tear leaves me open to hearing “low” angry, nasty destructive voices. When I open myself, however, to love and release my own anger, the flow of the loving energy “blocks”, if you will, the sound of the “low” voices. This was one of the most important steps in my development, and happened under the minstering of “Charismatics”, which is why I will not label that way of life as evil. They did me much good. It is simply that, like all human perspectives, they are not perfect. Oooops, neither am I.

The next step in my learning, however, came from a Buddhist teacher who showed me the benefits of “letting go”, completely, of all attachment to outcomes. I will not say that I have been a resounding success at this, but most of the time I am able, sometimes with much prayer and meditation, to let go of my “right” to expect the results I want from what I do, or even from what others do. It is extremely helpful in that I get angry less often when I succeed at this, and am able to relax and let the flow of love keep the disturbing voices at bay.

It is here that the mantra, “Grant me the serenity, courage and wisdom . . .” has been of great service in my life. I am most grateful to AA for making their teachings public, and most grateful to Dr. Neibuhr for development of that prayer.

EDIT ~

12.3.2008, looking back to see what I had said, I find that I did not give the name of the Buddhist teacher whose worked helped me so much. Since his teaching is quite available to the public, that is unfair. Thich Nhat Hanh is his name, the book is Anger, Wisdom for Cooling the Flames. Excellent learning resource, and comes in CD as well.

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