A voicehearer’s path ~

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Free Will ~

binnewies-390-for-tridion_tcm18-115975Do we have free will? Well, I personally believe so. We have mapped the human genome, and they don’t seem to have found a gene for free will, but, there are many things that point to the idea that each of us, in spite or because of our genetic make up, can make choices as to how we will respond to life’s stimuli.

There always seem to be those who would love to tell us that we are just chemicals reacting to what the world delivers at our doorstep. Yet, looking at life in intensely disturbing reality will show us that this is not necessarily true. One sibling with a similar genetic make-up to the other will struggle against the tide and surface far from muck and gore, while another from the same family will sink into the mire of a life underscored by suffering and sorrow. Why? We don’t really know. It is most certainly NOT just genetics.

From my perspective, as a mystic and student of the cosmos, I think of it as martin-luther-king-jr-picthe “medicine” each child was born with, though that entails not just genetics, but past lives, and ancestral contributors to one’s make-up. There is one other contributor to character that may or may not be counted by the “experts”. The person that child adheres to as a role model may make all the difference in the world. If one thinks in terms of the difference between a “Hannibal Lechter” type or a “Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.” type the two paths in life are so obvious as to be painful. But children in their first 7 years of developement are often not exposed to such archetypes, their world is much more tightly knit that this.

Aunt Jane, or Mama are their world, or Gramma, or Grampa or Dad or Uncle Joe. How we react to our world is how we teach the little ones to react, mouse1and it is often those we admire that our children admire or reject for just such similar reasons. Many times I have seen an incompatability in “medicines” be the means by which the “bad seed” develops into a rebel or delinquent. A child born with “mouse” medicine to a parent with hawk medicine may learn to hide from the eyes of their elders and becomes sneaky and untrusting and untrustworthy. Yet, mouse medicine is not bad medicine. If the child is guided by one with similar medicine, say a Mama with squirrel medicine, the child may prosper if only because they learn to prepare for what life brings them.

The “hawk” and “mouse” situation may turn abusive, simply because of hawk7frustration and fear of what will result when the child matures, yet the parent never meant to be abusive in the least, loving the child immensely. How tragic this whole scene becomes, most especially when it is from intense love that the results are far from ideal. There are no societal safe zones for either the parent or the child. Nothing “honorable” that will allow the parent to “back off” and let the child become themselves. Our family unit is now too small for the child to find an aunt or uncle who can understand, as the family is often scattered over 1000’s of miles.

I guess then, that I must conclude that though we do indeed have free will, and if the child can survive intact until their late thirties without having been in too much trouble with the law, they may get themselves straightened out, as it takes that long for us to become who we are, even when the parenting was compatible with our “medicines.” Even here, I believe we have free will, and if we have the internal strenth, we can become who we want to be no matter what our parents were or are, good or not so good. One most helpful thing to remember is that most parents truly do the best they can with the tools they are given to hand.

Politics and Spirituality ~

sarah-palin-11The minute McCain chose an unknown from Alaska (and attendant at an Assemblies of Oh My God church), I began watching the political scene with fear and trepidation. You see, that was the denomination I had followed when I was functioning as a fundie. This woman is beautiful, and quite comfortable in front of cameras, and I was worried that the Republicans would win on that ground alone.

It became apparent after a little research that she was not, apparently from as strict a congregation as I had attended, and I could not tell where her faith played in her politics. Most AoOMG are antiabortionists on any basis, the unborn fetus’ rights superceding the mother’s rights or the rights of other children whose lives might be affected, no matter the reason for the consideration of abortion. There are other considerations that plagued me. Generally, the AoOMG denomination is not one to teach path work, instead resting completely on the forgiveness of sin by the blood shed on the cross by God incarnate, Jesus Christ.

The problem with this stance is that it leads to inconsistency in the outward 1a_duerer-prayer1lives of the congregants. They believe in the infilling of the Holy Ghost in all believers as a sign of salvation, though even here there is some inconsistency, some congregations practice this, others do not. They do not count compassion toward others as a sign of salvation, even though that is the one command that Y’shua gave before he hung on the cross. see John chapters 13 thru 17. There is little obedience taught in AoOMG, as, depending on the pastor, they may or may not teach forgiveness in order to be forgiven, taught in the Lord’s Prayer, Matt. 6:12

I am aware that life is not just a gift from heartSpirit, but of Spirit, and that terminating a pregnancy early may indeed be contrary to this. There is a large consideration, here, that is often missed by those who would choose life no matter the consequences. My query? Would that pregnancy carry to term were we not dependent on medications to bring this about? I am of the same thought on continuously coding an individual whose heart is giving out, (and mine is, BTW, so don’t think this isn’t a personal choice for me.) I am not for terminating life when quality can be a possibility, but, neither do I believe in resuscitating a vegetable, please do not do that to me. I would give that same consideration to other lives for the same reasons.

It is for this reason that I have kept the commentary on this blog spiritual, not going into the politics of the moment very often. My personal preferences on something may NOT be what Spirit would have you do, and IP182-08.JPG do not wish to mold opinions that would send you contrary to what Spirit would have you do with your life. Politics and Sprituality are a poor mix no matter what your belief system or political party. I do not want to know if a candidate is a Christian, Jew or Buddhist. It does not matter to me. I want to know that a candidate is ethical, concerned with the opinions and needs of the constituency, and will carry out their duties with all the integrity possible. One does not just give that oath before Hashem, one is supposed to give it before the humans being served.

Love or Fear, the choice of how to live ~

I have said before that I spent a while in fundamentalist country before finding my way out to a gentler, quieter stream in the river of life. The preachers in the more fundamentalist style of the faith often seem to act as though they are competing with the evening news, or worse, “Everybody loves Raymond” The style of preaching is almost always volatile, exciting, rythmic and somewhat hypnotic. The usual goal of the speaker is to raise the hoary head of fear and then soothe the fear with “Jeeeesus, Jeeeeesus, Sweeeeeetest name I Know.”

The problem with living in that kind of fear was that most of the time, when I heard the voices, they were obviously of dark origin, and I could not get “above” fear based commentary. I have been quite fortunate not to have the voices that tell you to kill the neighbor, I think I would have been too frightened to move if those voices had spoken to me, mostly the fear would be aimed at an immobilization of anything I wanted to do. The kind of voices that make you agoraphobic, claustrophobic, xenophobic, and just plain phobic.

I did go through one of the “exorcism” prayer circles, it made no difference, other than that I started having remembered dreams of unpleasantness as well. It really was a frightening time in my life. I found that when I had backed away from that fellowship and began to concentrate on Proverbs and the sweeter Psalms, and God’s promises, that the fearful voices subsided and I had prayed for the help of the teacher spoken of in Chapter 8 of that book.

That was when the rainbow teacher began to come around. Her advice was to avoid the fearful preaching and simply lead a contemplative life. She it was who taught me that compassion was the most important lesson. She taught me how to fill my mind with good and kind thoughts and how to overcome the negative thinking that had been so much a part of my formative years. She taught me that high drama is seldom necessary, and that disciplined living that filled the mind, heart and life with higher truths was far more effective than exorcism, in fact the things she taught me were essentially how to exorcise one’s own dark demons from within. It was her teaching that silenced the dark voices.

OK, I will admit that this could quite naturally be some “higher” part of myself, (though I am not sure that the me that is me could reach as high as true compassion 100% of the time.)but then, according to Jewish teaching, we all carry a spark of the divine. I pray that it is the voice of that spark, or that that spark is the door through which she enters, as life has been a whole lot better with her teaching and encouragement. There is another kind of fear with which there is no choice but to deal, the authoress here has written quite well about it.

Calvin or Arminius ~

I was certain I had written a post about these two influential theologians before, but it is apparently one I was unhappy with, and discarded. Calvin’s world was a world where God predetermined all that happened, even those things we perceive as evil come from God as part of an eternal plan. With Calvin, the only people that are in Heaven were determined from before their birth, and those in Hell are the same, determined before they were even conceived. When one argues that this eliminates free will, the debate is that, no, God just knows who will choose the right way, he doesn’t make you choose.

Unfortunately, my problem is that Calvinists want it both ways. Either God is the “Boss” and takes the credit and blame for all that happens on Earth (in which case God is both devil and angel), or God is Creator giving free will and allowing the created to choose whether they will love or not. This is an old debate, and I most certainly will not be the one to solve the issues on this page, but I would very much like to throw a couple of thoughts out there.

First of all, let me reiterate that I am a reincarnationist, there were and are Ivrit (Jews) who were such, as well as those who did not believe in reincarnation, so this is also an old debate. I do not buy all of Paul’s theology, and it is Paul’s writings that form the basis of Calvinism, i.e. Calvinism is Paulism. Paul’s theology was thoroughly influenced by Greek and Roman thinking. What this has done is marked main line Christianity with all manner of hidden little bits of treasure that hearken back not to Judaism, but to Paganism, while at the same time prancing around and pronouncing that those dirty pagans are all doomed to an eternity in Hell, and it was predetermined!

Then there is the idea that God, who is, from both the perspectives of Calvin and Arminius, eternally and truly good, yet, in Calvinism brings forth things we perceive as evil to bring about a greater good. So, in Calvinism Stalin killed 20 million people in order to bring some good end into the world, or maybe even Hitler’s puny 12 million ought to be counted in here. By Calvinistic thought, these were both emissaries of God. Sorry, you may buy that, I don’t. I do however buy that God is so merciful that, should either man have turned around at any point and gave up their murderous pursuits, they would have been welcomed with open arms {A little reminder, I happen to believe that the sin against the Holy Spirit is calling evil good, and good evil, so it is quite possible that Calvinists are treading on thin ice, eh?)

Now, even though my belief system more closely emulates that of Arminius than that of Calvin, ( truth to tell, I am probably Hamayim more than any totally Christian theology.) I do believe that Hashem can bring about good things from the darkest evil man can concoct. I believe that Hashem is more powerful and bigger than anything that human mind can comprehend. But I also believe that Hashem created and released us into the universe with true free will.

That means that we can make the choice to love or fear. Note, I did not say love or hate. Hate is not the opposite of love, fear is. Every shortcoming, whether just a mistake in thought or a truly dark and evil deed can be traced back to fear! Hate is even a result of fear. I believe that God is love, and that everyone who loves is born of God, and those who do not know how to love do not know God. {1John 4:7-8} That has nothing to do with labels like Calvinism, Arminianism, Buddhism, Taoism, Pentecostalism, or even antidisestablishmentarianism! It has to do with knowing the very essence of God in a very personal way that decries the preaching of any evangelist anywhere. If I believe Calvin, I believe that God is incapable of spreading that love without Christians spreading the Gospel. Excuse me, do you see what you have contrived, here? Your Almighty God that you insist I limit by saying he gave me and all other humans complete free will, has left the fate of mankind in the hands of a few country preachers. I don’t think so!!

Now, I also believe that Hashem is quite capable of picking you or me up by the bootstraps and sending us through a meatgrinder without the mortal assistance of any human should God wish to do that. I believe that God is so huge that The Ancient of Days is greater than all the universes in existence. I also believe that Hashem exists in that space between one’s in breath and one’s out breath. God is Awesome, literally. You have no clue what you are saying about my perspective of God. I also believe that when a person of any persuasion from Buddhist to Baptist puts their life in the hands of the Almighty, that Hashem is able to turn around all circumstances in their lives.

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